One small thing can alter the entire course or your day, week, and even your life. For me it was a possibility, a glimmer, that a dream could come true.
I have always wanted to be married and raise a family. Because this dream has always seemed impossible and distant I have poured myself into my work. In some ways you could say that I have married my work. I am overly committed to it at times. I pour everything I have into my job which causes me to work longer and harder, on and off the clock. I love my job and have great aspirations of continued growth and opportunities with this company. But now I'm asking myself if this is realty where my focus should be or how much of my focus should be here.
Sometimes one small occurrence can cause you to question the direction you are going. Is this really what I want? Is this really what God wants for me?
Last week a potential opportunity came up and reminded me of my deepest dream of being married. I realized that maybe I've settled in my life. I have an amazing job but maybe, just maybe, I've let go of the dream that God has for me and replaced it with the dream I created because I was tired of waiting. I was tired of being lonely and tired of being patient. To diminish the pain I turned all my focus to my work instead of God. My job isn't evil and it's not wrong to move up within the company; what is wrong is letting my job take first place over God. I didn't realize this had happened until I was faced with the choice between a company picnic and this possibility. That may sound silly but I don't think it was an accident that they would occur on the same day. I believe it was a God thing.
I did choose the possibility over the company picnic. I realized that if I continued to hide behind my job that's all I'd ever have. After taking this chance I see things in a whole new light. The things that really matter have come to the surface of my heart. Obviously my job is still important for my livelihood but God is first. Serving Him and living for Him must be my focus.
The potential opportunity is still just to possibility. A beautiful and exciting chance for my deepest dreams to come true. I don't know how the story ends but I know God is speaking to me and helping me focus on Him.
There are small occurrences in life that take us away from the path God has for us or takes us back to His path. We have to be close enough to God to discern between the two. We can always grow closer to God and this is my goal.
God bless,
Linda
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